diff --git a/komrade/backend/messages.py b/komrade/backend/messages.py
index a169d18..801e263 100644
--- a/komrade/backend/messages.py
+++ b/komrade/backend/messages.py
@@ -43,7 +43,7 @@ class Message(Logger):
             self.log(f'msg #{i+1}: {msg}')
             dict_merge(md,msg.msg_d)
         # self.log('returning meta')
-        return meta_msg
+        return md
 
     def __repr__(self):
         msg_d_str=dict_format(self.msg_d,tab=6)
diff --git a/komrade/backend/the_operator.py b/komrade/backend/the_operator.py
index 15222d3..26e5b93 100644
--- a/komrade/backend/the_operator.py
+++ b/komrade/backend/the_operator.py
@@ -65,6 +65,7 @@ class TheOperator(Operator):
         # decrypt all of it!
         msg_obj.decrypt()
         self.log('I am now decrypted!',msg_obj)
+        self.log('my messages:',msg_obj.messages)
 
         #self.log(f'Operator understood message route: {msg_obj.route}')
         self.log('meta msg!',msg_obj.meta_msg)
diff --git a/komrade/constants.py b/komrade/constants.py
index 588b90c..c0091ee 100644
--- a/komrade/constants.py
+++ b/komrade/constants.py
@@ -145,7 +145,7 @@ PATH_OPERATOR_WEB_CONTACTS_DIR = '/home/ryan/www/website-komrade/.contacts'
 PATH_OPERATOR_WEB_CONTACT_OP_URL = f'http://{KOMRADE_URL}/.contacts/TheOperator.png'
 PATH_OPERATOR_WEB_CONTACT_PH_URL = f'http://{KOMRADE_URL}/.contacts/TheTelephone.png'
 
-
+PAUSE_LOGGER = False
 
 # dangerous! leave on only if absolutely necessary for initial dev
 ALLOW_CLEARNET = True
diff --git a/komrade/utils.py b/komrade/utils.py
index 28c29ef..b63ecc2 100644
--- a/komrade/utils.py
+++ b/komrade/utils.py
@@ -52,11 +52,13 @@ class Logger(object):
         mytype = type(self).__name__
         caller = calframe[1][3]
         log(f'\n[{mytype}.{caller}()]',*x)
-        try:
-            pause()
-            clear_screen()
-        except KeyboardInterrupt:
-            exit()
+
+        if PAUSE_LOGGER:
+            try:
+                pause()
+                clear_screen()
+            except KeyboardInterrupt:
+                exit()
 
 import binascii,base64
 def isBase64(sb):